I began my spiritual journey in earnest not out of choice but out of desperation at the life changing age of 50 years old.  Even though I had been questioning life over the years, and wondering what else was out there for me I had chosen to remain in my spiritual slumber - it was easier to blame the busyness of life and use it as a major distraction all the while my soul, my internal guidance system was prompting me and nudging me.

“If you are resisting being more authentic and true to your power, love and wisdom, your soul will uncannily orchestrate the necessary factors to have our fortressed life and armoured identity toppled seemingly overnight”. (From Anna, Grandmother of Jesus by Claire Heartsong).

This indeed was the case for me and In a very short time span- one month to be exact, I experienced two momentous events.  One was the loss of our family home in a house fire and a month later was the loss of my husband, who died after he suffered fatal injuries the night of the fire.  And so began my true journey back to self although to be honest my aim was not to start the journey back to myself, my aim simply was to contact with my husband.  I longed to make contact with him to soften the grief of his passing from this physical realm, I longed to keep the love I had for him alive, making contact with him I believed would be the balm for my broken heart.  If someone asked me what my defining moment was in starting my journey I would reply …. “It was in the bathroom feeling the weight of my sadness like a heavy cloak, and I spoke out loud “I’m so sad of being sad”, a little voice inside of my head replied “Well Jane, what are you going to do about it”?  And in that moment I knew, and I replied, “I’m going to get in contact with my husband”!! I was 100% committed.  I needed to do some work though so I could elevate my consciousness to somehow reach him, this became my focus and my drive.  “Find a reason to say Yes”, had been one of my husbands favourite sayings and I adopted this as my new go to and the universe took care of the “How”.  I attended many workshops, and training courses, I received energy healings in the form of angelic healing, shamanic inner healing and more besides. I dived into many books and devoured the learnings and continued searching for tools for my transformation.  On and on I went, I was a woman on a mission saying yes to all that felt aligned. Little did I know that this journey to find my husband would lead me back to myself and the deep love that I had for my husband would be surpassed by the love that I would discover within and for myself!!  What a journey, what a gift, what a blessing when I discovered that EVERYTHING, including the fire and the death of my husband, had all happened FOR me!